Currently Listening Don't Forget By Demi Lovato Who will I be see related

frustrating troubles

how can someone feel so much for you & 
the next moment, feel so much for another person.
you are one example aren't you.
I know it may seem like I can't let go.
why try getting attention at all?
I can't stand it, I feel like screaming!!!!
you are completely egoistic. well as far as I remember.
but then, I still remember your good points.
I want to forget all my troubles but you just keep coming back.
I see you, all the time.
you're stuck in my head, for now.
will you get out already!
ARGH.

Currently Listening A Walk to Remember By Original Soundtrack someday we'll know see related

gag.

I know I haven't been blogging regularly. Been preparing for Ns!
I'm like freaking scared. Well, here's a summary of what had my day been like : D

I went for music practice, sang till I was totally shacked. My throat was dry. Felt so completely
flat out I guess. sighsighsigh. & then after practice, we all went for lunch, ate and went back
to get on with youth meeting. Dionel was there already, GeLiang led us into singing again! lol.
I finally knew what my dream was about. well sort of, Beulah had told me what the blood
represented and what the chaos represented. It's kind of freaky if you knew what I dreamt.
I'm still creeped out by it. aaarrrgghh, will someone tell me its alright?? hmm. no one ever
comes to my blog anymore right? lol, so no point crying. well, looks like I have manymany
spirituaaalll drreeeaaamms. haha.so far four!
Dionel then gave me a so-called tuition for my social studies since I needed to remember
a whole bunch of stuff. I just hate those multi-ethnic society conflicts thing.
& not forgetting the traffic flow thing under governance in singapore.
He had a hard time teaching me since I got so distracted in the conference room.
Ge Liang hitting the table, Wendy and Nancy chatting, Chee Hoe asking questions.
you understand how I feel right? I hope! haha.
we went for dinner at the used-to-be usual place, JULAIHA.
just me, wendy, nancy, dionel and manuel. We started cracking silly jokes &
I kept laughing randomly and crazily. That's me outside school, I never get to laugh this
much in school, I wish I could. It helps me forget all my troubles(:
okay, I'm so sleepy now I just want to snuggle under my comfy blanket and lie on my soft pillow.
& then slowly fly away to dream land, where there are peaceful dreams! hehe.
so fairytale-eeee! haha. well, I miss Apphia Tan Jia Qi and Wendy Makundi.
goodnight. I'll dream of you if you read this post and tag me. haha.
goodnight again! : D

Currently Listening Chariot By Gavin DeGraw I don't wanna be see related

happy birthday bronson (belated of course.)

okay, so yesterday I went to the party, yes, unbelievable? agreeable.
I mean like, I don't want to go yet I wanted to go.
Firstly I felt like freaking guilty the moment I decided not to go, because I kept remembering
the promise I made to come this year since I didn't go the last year.
& although Bronson might have never ever! remembered it. I did. (shitshitshit).
For privacy purposes like 'someone' said, I shall not talk about what happened at hougang mall.
well, the rest of us took a cab over to pasir ris where the party was held.
which was at bronson's grandma's place.
It was pretty fun actually, not like what I had expected. FAR FROM IT.
so thanks FEE! DIO! & WEN!
(& btw you guys made youth so much fun yesterday! of course with beulah & uncle justin,
talking about the solar system and americans. LOL. but yes!yes! i got their idea : D)

okay, so back to the party..
we watched prom night, it was sad. four friends died.
imagine if those were my friends, I'd freak out like mad.
but yeah, overall reviews, the movie was alright. (:
Bronson's uncle(I think), brought out the white wine and opened it for all of us
to drink and yeah, everyone was pretty excited. haha!
Darryl was like : eh!eh! all under 16 right! underaged!
hello, we are all underaged! we are only allowed to drink legally at the age of 18! lol.
yeah but anyway, we all got to drink the white wine.
Bronson's older brother brought out 'Chivas Regal' (ARE YOU CRAZY?!)
I bet those who drank it probably didn't go home, or else they would probably
get chopped alive or something by their parents.
what kind of responsible person would let underaged people drink PURE liquor.
even if he isn't a responsible type, still he shouldn't.
I was telling my friends I'd better not even take one sip of it, cos if my dad fetches me
& smells it, he'll probably interrogate me in the car. lol. which he did not. PHEW!
okay, so after everyone had drunk the white wine, chong yu and gang, tried something slightly
stronger I think, (as usual, always wanting to try bigger things when some aren't ready), they drank
tiger beer, come on! they didn't even know how to pour it in a cup!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the foam almost overflowed from the cup. sounds like chiew beng right. he was the NOOB.
but in any case. apart from all that drinking, it was one hell of a night I guess.
oh and I heard bronson got so wasted, haha! I guess its only normal to think that way considering
the fact that he was the birthday boy! lol. okok, thats all I have to share. NIGHTNIGHT!

I HAVE MUSIC PRACTICE AT 11.30AM!
gotta rush! : DD

It's the one thing on my mind.

Firstly, N levels are 11 days away and I'm freaking out!
Mathematics isn't going so well for me at all, Ms Ving just refuse to listen at times.
& it irritates me sometimes, gonna admit that fact.
I am really disappointed in my prelim 2 results. I don't understand how come some people think
it's good that I got 13 points, only until I tell them it is L1B2. lol.
aaarrggh, 4 points away from my expectations!!
It's kind of disappointing, & I'm not sure if I can still make it to sec 5.
My current marks has sort of demoralized me enough already.
hmmmmm..

Tomorrow's bronson's birthday party and I can't believe I'm going, yet I am.
if it ever makes sense. nevermind. okay, I'm pretty tired already and I have music practice tmr!!
So I'm gonna go sleep. goodnight!